Pregnant with my Subsequent Pregnancy After Loss (SPAL) baby, I am aware of every kick, and of every non-kick, that this child makes. It is an awareness that I never thought that I'd need to have.
Sometimes, Isaac sleeps. My heart fills with panic.
"Wake up and move, baby! Please!"
I plead with an unborn child.
Ten weeks to go...
MWM Turns 30
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Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
One Day Left...
2010 will arrive in my Mid-Western home as it always does - cold, cloudy, and ho-hum. We may sleep in a little, and we'll probably watch a re-run marathon of some trashy television show that we'd normally not have time for. Mainly, though, we'll be excited about the opportunity that ringing in a new year brings to our family, our careers, our finances, and our general health and well-being.
Our precious son Henry died unexpectedly during the final days of my pregnancy last Spring. A cord accident (true knot) proved to be the cause - a simple, natural, occurrence that takes the lives of some, but not the lives of others. Even with nearly 9 months of perspective, I still don't know why our family was chosen. After doing the hard work of achieving a new "normal" for myself and for my family, I continue to lament the loss of the privilege of knowing and raising my son, and of giving my nearly 3 year-old daughter a sibling and playmate. 2009 will always be a landmark year in my life - one during which my son both lived and died; and so did I in some ways.
Join me as I spend a year blogging about being a Mom in the Mid-West, parenting a toddler daughter, expecting a SPAL (subsequent pregnancy after loss) baby, and guiding 26 fourth graders into a new decade of being. 2010, here I come with almost 30 years in tow and friends by my side!
MWM Turns 30
Our precious son Henry died unexpectedly during the final days of my pregnancy last Spring. A cord accident (true knot) proved to be the cause - a simple, natural, occurrence that takes the lives of some, but not the lives of others. Even with nearly 9 months of perspective, I still don't know why our family was chosen. After doing the hard work of achieving a new "normal" for myself and for my family, I continue to lament the loss of the privilege of knowing and raising my son, and of giving my nearly 3 year-old daughter a sibling and playmate. 2009 will always be a landmark year in my life - one during which my son both lived and died; and so did I in some ways.
Join me as I spend a year blogging about being a Mom in the Mid-West, parenting a toddler daughter, expecting a SPAL (subsequent pregnancy after loss) baby, and guiding 26 fourth graders into a new decade of being. 2010, here I come with almost 30 years in tow and friends by my side!
MWM Turns 30
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