Tired

Today - this moment actually - I am so tired that I can barely see straight. I am worn down. On top of teaching full-time and raising a toddler, I am experiencing the most emotionally-charged pregnancy that I could have ever imagined for myself. I am now 27 weeks along, and even the most minor periods of inactivity (baby's gotta sleep every now and then!), I absolutely freak out. I go to "that place" and just start praying that God will let me keep this child. Emotionally, this day-to-day ritual takes a toll. I had a "freak-out" yesterday. I had another this afternoon. No pill, no energy bar, no nap can tackle this feeling of utter exhaustion. I pray that one day, after my Isaac arrives and is able to sleep through the night, I will wake up one morning feeling satisfied in my wakefulness.

Weary, but hopeful,

MWM Turns 30