A Mom's Wish List

1. A personal chef
2. A housekeeper
3. TWO refrigerators and PLENTY of pantry space
4. ALL walk-in closets (not just in the master!)
5. Clean restrooms at the park
6. Voice-activated remote control
7. Clothes that fit after pregnancy (not too big, not too small, not stretched out, etc.)
8. Gorgeous hair that needn't be so much as blown out
9. A husband that genuinely enjoys his role as a father
10. Children that are healthy, safe, and (for the most part) well-behaved

Happy to have 9 & 10... working on the other 8!

MWM Turns 30

No Routine IS our Routine!

My son is 7 weeks old, my daughter knows only her whale pool and swings, and I am taking an accelerated graduate course in an effort to obtain my next level of professional licensure. We have no routine. When someone asks, "What would be a good time to...?" I have to reply, "I don't know. Let's try for... or If my baby is sleeping, then..."

Our routine is having no routine, and the sooner that I accept and appreciate it, the better off that I - and everyone else - will be.

MWM Turns 30

Who Am I Now?

It occurred to me this afternoon while eating lunch, and I will preface by acknowledging that I am prone to over-analyzing just about everything, that I may no longer know who I am.

In between trying to conceive each of my children (and thus, being a trying mom), I was stay-at-home nursing mom (Izzie) and grieving, working mom (Henry), only to be followed by anxious, pregnant mom (Isaac). Today, I am no longer trying, no longer pregnant, and (will soon be) no longer nursing. So... what am I?

Who I am has influenced the way that I eat, the way that I sleep, the way that I work... everything, for several years. If I am to simply be Renee again, I will have to take some time to figure out who that is now that my babies are here and my family is complete.

MWM Turns 30

Still Impatient

I think that I wrote a blog a few months ago about being impatient. Yes, that's me: Mrs. Impatient Universe. I could probably blame other people and things for my inability to take things slowly, casually, with ease... but the truth is that I am simply an impatient person. This is probably my biggest character flaw considering that I am a mother and elementary school teacher. I reflect on the times that I rush Izzie to do things and I feel ashamed of myself. Why should she have to do everything "quick, quick, candlestick" so that I can fit in more things and thus be able to say (not that anyone is paying attention) that I have been "productive?" To my knowledge, there is no reward for having everybody ready, on time, always.

I continue to work on this part of myself.

MWM Turns 30

Jekyll & Hyde / Mommy & Baby

It seems as though we're both having mood swings. He goes from happy to fussy in a matter of moments (darn that gas!), and I go from calm and serene to weepy and nostalgic in the same amount of time. I don't only miss my Henry (and the lost opportunity to nurture him), but I also miss Izzie as a baby. A small part of me regrets that Isaac is likely the last newborn that I will hold for a long time, and yet, I look forward to the day when he is old enough to really smile, giggle, walk, talk, and play. There are times when he doesn't want to eat - or be held - or even to burp (the thing that he needs most); just as there are times that I don't want to put his snuggly body down, all whilst I dream about him being a toddler.

Mommy / baby mood swings?